I Am Going To Win It

In July 1999, Shama was in New York when Guru's old house at Aspiration-Ground was taken apart. Some pieces were for sale, so Shama bought a piece with birds on it. She sent a fax with news to Moscow and mentioned that she bought this piece. She also wrote that she wanted to hold a raffle during our Joy Days for this piece of Guru's house. I immediately felt that I badly needed it and that I was going to win it. I am not a lucky person—I never win anything. But this time I felt it so strongly, I even told some of my friends that I was going to win it.
When the Joy Days came, Shama was putting the raffle announcement on the wall when I told her, "Shama, I am going to win it." She just laughed.
When the time came, we had Jagattarini pull out seven names from the jar. Then a little girl had to draw one name from these seven. Guess who? I won it! It was so amazing for everybody. Some disciples even thought that Shama especially wrote my name on all the papers! I was in Seventh Heaven, overwhelmed with gratitude.
When I came to New York in August, I told this story to Govinda. She jumped and said, "You know, first Shama bought it as a birthday present for you, but then she changed her mind!" If Guru wants you to have something, there is no way you can escape it!

Lotika (Moscow)