Poem For Subarata

Subarata

    Sometimes I still come across
    these old photos of you,
    moments from a life, salvaged
    from the blur of time,
    here sepia brown, grumpy-faced at six
    on your first pony ride, anxious mother in tow
    and here in sharper tones, with a schoolgirl pal
    dolled up and blazing with rebellion,
    poised on the brink of your first glorious
    expulsion from school.
    Look, now I've turned up and we're jammed
    hilariously into a photo booth, wreathed
    in smoke and smiles, hamming it up
    for the cheap snaps.
    And here's a poignant one, waving gaily
    at the camera, arms aloft,
    goodbye, goodbye, a last unwitting valediction.
    They somehow bring into a momentary focus
    the blurred incomprehension of a life
    and with it too that unrelenting pathos,
    aching like a toothache at the sadness of it all.
    Yes, retrospect brings such pathos, knowing as we glance
    from snap to snap what's coming next
    like a film whose end you know before it starts
    and how everything that seemed so sure –
    parents, dogs, uncles, school pals, life itself – all
    of it, gone away, gone.
    And now you've vanished also into myth and story,
    resculpted by memory into something
    much simpler than you were,
    leaving us rummaging through these old pics
    and brooding over the big existential questions
    and marvelling at you, as you actually were,
    alive in that present, so bright with life and expectation,
    so real and true, that you could step
    out of this glossy, full-color shot in your red jeans
    and yellow hair and end my disbelief
    with your smile.
    Today the flowers on your shrine have withered.
    The race trophies are laid out like memorials,
    your clothes hang limply on the rack.
    Even your toy pandas seem forlorn.
    Nothing lasts, no, not love, hope, despair,
    no nor memory either.

        – Jogyata.

 

 

 

 

 

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Gulls

    They came again this dawn
    an avian rabble, beaked brutes
    clambering over my tin roof like a break-in,
    clumsy intruders poised
    to storm through my skylight window,
    banging open seashells
    in a fusillade of clatter,
    shrieking in querulous dispute
    over scraps hauled from the city tip,
    plumage soiled by the grime of plunder.
    No longer sea-birds, you lot,
    but city slickers, glutted on garbage,
    forsaking the tedium of oceans
    for the bedlam of the county dump
    motherlode of scraps,
    easy pickings for a street smart gull
    idling away the afternoons on my roof,
    feathers afluff and dozing in the sun –
    lazy as sin,
    visiting the coasts only on weekends
    shamed by your dumb cousins
    the albatross and petrel,
    exiles traveling the lonely places
    drifting across those endless, empty spaces,
    wandering alone the deserts of the seas
    on calm, unmoving wings.

       – Jogyata.

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Child-Sweet

    Your love prised me open like a clam
    numb heart
    opened to an oyster pearl
    of giggling joy
    nose twister
    bouncing on my poor chest
    like a mad puppy
    growling in my ear
    tiny hands pushing flesh
    into a dozen pleasing shapes
    putty face stretched into a
    samurai, frog and monster.
    And now you deck me out
    in nature's finery,
    a beached, snoring Neptune
    bejeweled with flotsam from the sea–
    cat's eyes and kelp, pale sea lettuce
    bleached herring bones and
    coral shards for teeth.
    Aroused from my mock sleep
    I rear up, roaring
    and you rush into the sanctuary of sea
    shrieking from this monster you've created.
    Under a warm sky
    I cast off clinging robes of kelp
    spit sand and guard
    your playing in the tide.
    Child-sweet, brief thing of flesh
    I guard your playing in the sea
    with my own quiet eyes
    of love.

       – Jogyata.

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Past Lives

    Boothill, buzzards, buttes, badlands,
    an old shack on the river’s edge
    and the lazy brown hills
    climbing away into pale silhouette
    high blue, faraway.
    And at dusk
    smoke from the fires,
    saddle smells, carbine and cordite
    sweet earth
    and the fragrant wind out of the dark.
    Then the long nights
    strewn with stars,
    almond blossom white and bright
    in the cold vault of sky.
    Yes, I remember, I remember.
    Ride on ghost cowboy,
    this life ain’t big enough for both of us.

       – Jogyata.

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Mrs. Jewel and the Earthquake

    When I was just a little lad
    my Poppa said to me,
    "It's time to make your old man proud,
    a pianist you shall be."

    He sent me off to music school
    with tutor Mrs. Jewel.
    The name was inappropriate,
    in fact she was plain crewel.

    Just one wrong note, she'd shout my name
    and strike me with a cane.
    My little digits went all blue
    and caused a lot of pain.

    I mastered preludes, rattled off
    arpeggios and scales,
    while Mrs. Jewel lashed and yelled,
    "In my school no-one fails!"

    But one day kind fate intervened;
    we had a largish 'quake.
    The house began to rock and pitch,
    the earth began to shake.

    A flight of ducks fell off the wall,
    a fishbowl – it was shattered.
    A pot plant crashed, a painting flew,
    my tutor's nerves were battered.

    She sprang up from the piano stool,
    she lurched towards the door.
    She staggered vainly round the room
    then tumbled to the floor.

    "O Lord !" she cried, "my hour has come."
    She gave an awful wail.
    Her eyes took on a ghastly hue,
    her features went all pale.

    And though all round, destruction reigned,
    the scene I did ignore,
    including Mrs Jewel, pale
    and cowering on the floor.

    For I, more terrified of she
    than of this odd dilemma,
    I played straight through the episode,
    ignored the seismic tremor.

    I dashed off triplets, semibreves,
    it was my finest hour,
    while Mrs Jewel upon the floor
    could only wail and cower.

    Each note was true, my fingers flew
    across the tinkling keys.
    I played and played and couldn't stop,
    my father's hopes to please.

    At last the 'quake it passed us by,
    my tutor left the floor.
    A new respect was in her eyes,
    she staggered through the door.

    "You'll never make the stage, my boy
    Your father may be shattered,
    but a brave young man you'll one day make."
    I really felt quite flattered.

    "While musically you mightn't be
    the maestro we had thought,
    the qualities you've just displayed
    they can't be sold or bought."

    With that she clasped me in her arms,
    you wouldn't have believed.
    She swept me from the piano stool,
    a giant hug bequeathed.

    And from that day the Big Quake came
    to stop her reign of terror,
    she made the simple heartfelt plea:
    "From now on call me Sarah."

    My old Dad quietly took the news
    I wouldn't be a star.
    He said, "I've still got faith in you,
    I think you'll go quite far."

    "I think a lawyer you could be,
    this time you mustn't fail.
    Let's see if you can make it there..."
    but that's another tale.

       – Jogyata.

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Earthquake

    At first it was a laugh
    the vase, trembling
    then tiptoeing across the mantelpiece
    and you caught the tumbling flowers
    just in time
    and that tiny hairline fracture
    in the plaster, roof to floor –
    I dreamed of magma, pouring through
    the cracks, a white-hot underworld and fire.
    We pored over maps, yes the fault-line
    somewhere right beneath,
    imagining the giant plates grinding
    shockwaves tumbling houses,
    fleeing cattle, death
    waiting for the hills to
    undulate like waves
    the jutting prows of continents collide
    and unseen carapace of earth
    cliffs five miles high and right below
    moving, moving, an inch or two
    to change or waste our lives.
    All night long we listened.
    The radio talked about the Big One, a pulse
    metronomed inside my fingers, counting down.
    The cicadas had fallen silent and the moon
    flared in your witless, reassuring smile.
    I tasted fear, planned my exit
    from the falling shattered walls,
    waited for the dawn.

       – Jogyata.

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Enhancing Our Literary Heritage

    On occasuns that are numerus
    – it's really rather humerous –
    We get quite lost in sillines
    And literary dilliness
    And ponder on apostrofies
    And quibble on apostasies
    Of grammar and syntacticals
    And colons, get fanatical.
    The object's to communikate
    Not nitpick, mutter, obfuscate
    And if I choose to spel 'you' yu
    And 'cat' as kat or 'queue' as cue
    Or something else that may seem mocking
    Or ignorant and deeply shocking
    Then let's not live life fecklesslie
    Let's live a little recklessly
    And step outside the stifling box
    Of 'can' and 'can't', I say a pox
    On those who always bend their knee
    To grammar, long live Heresie
    And I say (tho' it may seem treasun)
    Let's have some fun, abandun reasun
    Run rampint thru decorum's 'ought'
    And 'should' and 'must', let's not be corght
    By stodgie rools and regulations
    Hurrah for de-sanc-tif-if-ication
    And if this seems ikonoclastic
    Or verging on the plain bombastik
    Then dot your 'i's and cross your 't's
    And go your way and others pleeze
    But me I luv mixed metafors
    And always feel the better for
    My gaucheries and malaprops
    Ineptitudes and missed full stops
    I'll choose another road.
    And when I'm far too old for scrabble
    Inventing great new words like 'zabble'
    I'll still get joy mispelling names
    And you can tut-tut, point and blame.
    The fire that warms arthritik knees
    Kindled by the dictionairy
    Thesauruses will feed the flames
    While I rejoice in Pictionairy.

       – Jogyata.

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