Oneness-Depth, Gratitude-Height

My mother left the body on March 4th, 1987. I was very close to her and grieved for a long time until I was just numb inside. I was happy at the time of her passing that she was released from physical suffering, and Guru consoled me outwardly and inwardly. But it was like part of my being had died; I couldn't feel anything. Eight months later I came across a file of sympathy cards that I had saved. When I began reading the loving memories people shared of my mother, I started weeping. I cried and cried until I was exhausted. It was an overwhelming emotional tide, after which all I could do was go to sleep. I didn't tell anyone why I was sad the next day. That evening Guru called the Seattle Centre, where I was at the time, in honour of the Centre's anniversary. He spoke to everyone individually. The first thing he said to me when I got on the phone was, "Good girl, you can see your mother smiling and glowing inside your Guru's heart." At that moment, I realised Guru's oneness-depth. Someday I hope to realise my gratitude-height.

Pipasa (New York)